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February 2014

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le sigh.

so far this year is turning out lethargic. nothing is really making me happy. the bank hasnt called, i hate my job, i havent gotten unemployment since december, jen and i arent getting along. its like a big dark cloud just follows me. i dont know what i did in this world, or a past one for that matter, to deserve such shit luck.

jen did a lot today, but she lacked the most important thing, making me feel loved. i felt like she was "there" but she wasnt. even when she wasnt cooking or cleaning, we had very little us time, talk time, snug time..anything. she is on the phone, or bothering the dog more then she is loving on me. i just dont get it. i know ive been a super cunt but to isolate me even more then i feel in this world isnt helping. sometimes i feel like im not enough for her, or maybe she isnt enough for me. i dont know. what doesnt bend, breaks. and right now everything is breaking.

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